Monday, June 22, 2015
wow, another long time since i last blogged. sorry to be so slow about things. but i do have a 3 and a 1/2 month old (!!!) at home taking up most of my time and attention (rightfully so!!) ....
things are going well as we are already 1/3 of the way into summer .... how did THAT happen btw? seems last time i blinked it was may. we actually had a recent medical scare with George. He is going to be fine but we lost ourselves for a while in the hospital, and tunnel-visioned into fear to the exclusion of all else, including many days of not sleeping. I won't tell you how scary that feels! But seriously. His condition is manageable and, while scary, nothing that will do permanent damage. There is a high likelihood too, that he will outgrow it. So we have him on medicine and are doing frequent doctor follow-ups and hoping for the best outcome possible.
The situation was good in that it helped me to refocus on the truly important, and to learn how to celebrate when 1 or 2 items get crossed off on one day. It's literally all you can do with an infant (not a newborn, an infant!! wow!!) and that's OKAY. I am so looking forward to seeing the world for many more years to come through a child's eyes and at a child's pace. Becoming a parent is life-altering in a way you couldn't even imagine before. Those of you who are parents have felt this chasm opening between your now and the past. It's amazing and truly life-altering.
Becoming a parent is a lot of learning how to LET GO. Life just isn't the same, I think I spent the first 3 months trying to live an altered version of my old life. Um, no. No more old life. And slowly we figure out how to fit ourselves in. An hour at the pool. A 2-hour date while G. stays with Grandma. Knitting three rows while G. naps. Reading like crazy while nursing. A solo walk after G. goes to bed and daddy stays in. Easy to put together at 8 pm meals.
I am still job hunting. There is an incredible prospect coming up this week. Fingers crossed. It would be a school for G. and me!! AMI. I am not going back to the hunt until this meeting is over with. I think this is the ONE.
Gardening ... not happening again this summer. Maybe next. Will be more fun with a toddler anyway, right? Many reasons for this, again having. a. baby. being number one.
Hope your summer is going so well. I feel like I'm going to blink and it will be September, which actually I'm really looking forward to because our landlord just installed new windows through our whole townhouse. Boy do I love fresh air.
It's 10 p.m. time to check on my sleeping sack of love.
Love and light,