Wednesday, December 31, 2008

it's somersaulty into 2009 .... but i'm hangin' on.

sorry i haven't checked in in days. the regular routine is all topsy-turvy. bed at 3 a.m. sleep till 11 ... too much indulgence, $$$ and otherwise ... a little too much food sludge ... NO walking or yoga (at least the knitting is going well!) ... so, i'm almost to the point of craving my usual life but not quite ... there are a few things left here to over-enjoy. still, i'm beginning to crave solitude, simplicity, and reflection again. i don't get that here, i get it in kentucky. so ... i'm here and yet not here, out here in CT and within myself. a surreal time, kind of feels like floating somewhere just above the earth. it's another of life's turning points, this new year's time. i've made new friends and rediscovered old loves and reestablished priorities for my life, all in a few short weeks of doing much, much, much.

pictures will come ....

sending love and joy and my helter skelter self from new england,


Monday, December 22, 2008

update from Connecticut

this is just a tiny update to let you know that i've made it home safely (been here a week and a half), have spent much time with friends, including three days snowed in at one of my best friend's, one of which had a great party thrown in despite the weather -- we've had two snowstorms in a row here, in sharp contrast to my aussie friends! -- have wrapped presents and done much knitting, way too much eating, especially cheese. my new camera arrived and i've taken tons of pictures. the memory card actually holds over 4000 images if you can believe it! unfortunately my parents don't have wireless so you'll have to wait to see them, but i promise to post as soon as the driving's better and i can get either to a friend's or a coffeeshop.

hope you all have a marvelous, magical christmas. i do miss my tiny apartment and simple, activist life and my cats, but well ... a little excess for a couple of weeks i'll allow myself. i will surrender some control for fun ... i really need it. and after all, enjoying time and good food with some of the best people in the world is infinitely better than stressing over their gifts!

be well, friends.


Monday, December 8, 2008

post script

if you'd like a christmas card from yours truly, e-mail me your address: It will likely be from CT and not KY, but i'll do it just the same!

happy holiday-ing and wintering, everyone! (and ... summering if you're on the other side of the world!)

catch y'all soon.

peace and love,

karen <3

Friday, December 5, 2008

on thoughts and holiday suchness.

hi, everyone.

just a semi-quick post to update before the next few days get a little crazy, with all i have to do and settle before i leave next friday. i'm so terribly excited to get home to new england again, after not being there for a YEAR. that's the longest i've ever been away from home. so ... i have plans to also get there early this coming summer.

the check finally came (and much-needed relief from stalking my mailbox for a month), so i sat down at my kitchen table tonight and worked out for an hour and a half, many different to-do lists, shopping lists, supply lists ... but most importantly, bill paying lists. Now, by the time I get on the plane Friday, all my consumer debt/bills save $400 (which I'm forgoing to buy a "new" used camera and donate to favorite charities with) ... that's about $5,500 or so. I will still have nearly $2,000 left over, plus my regular december paycheck, to get me through being home, and into january where i need to have some routine car maintenance done. when my second loan installment comes, i'll work on investing and setting several thousand aside for my summer in st. louis. which i'm promising myself will be a happy one this time around, due to being able to be better to myself thanks to the financial help. it's going to be wonderful to face a hopefully much-improved credit score, especially as i begin to toss around "house" thoughts in my brain (which of course won't be for another two years or so at the least, and it all depends on the market at that time).

the past two nights, i've been doing a great yoga DVD at home before bed. It's called "Yoga for Stress Relief." I'm going to order it and have it shipped to me at my parents'. i like that there are so many varying routines, many of which focus exclusively on relaxation and healthy, redirected breathing (breathing from all the right places) and you're guided through slowly, quietly, gently. just my type of thing. i'm still hoping to get a yearly membership when i come back, though ... it's expensive. we'll see. maybe i can use part of my candle party earnings to get that accomplished. it's hard to think of parting with all of the profit that was to be for my house fund, but well .. i consider health and wellness an important part of the whole picture, too.

i've had a little anxiety the past few days, i think mainly from general nervousness about travel to all the thoughts and memories that cascade down with the excitement about going home. i'll be okay, surely. just have to keep telling myself that, and breathing, and being slow ... and watching the kids just flow through life despite all of it. they are the great teachers.

i'm so disheartened to hear about the hordes of shoppers this year on "black friday," despite every possible economist out there saying we are in a recession. stop buying all this (pardon french) Shit, people. i recently read a statistic that really resonated with me, something like 70 percent of people in the world don't have a roof over their head, food in their stomach, and clothes on their back. because we all have these things, we are richer than 70 percent of the WORLD. imagine. and here "we" are killing people over gidgets and gadgets that take up more and more of the world's precious resources .. because we just can't imagine life without them. i am so glad this year that my gifts are few, thoughtful, and meaningful. and ... overall (despite some lingering doubts due to consumerist brainwashing) ... i'm glad i opted out of the school teacher swap and out of giving to friends. instead, i'll give of my love and time. and i'll spend the money on mini-trips i really want to take when i'm back in my little eastern u.s. hamlet.

read some good books, bake up good smells, do your anxiety-reducing and energizing yoga, and knit yourself into a beautiful stupor. these are true treasures we should never, never, never take for granted despite all that's there (but not really) for our taking. because in the end, "stuff" is not given -- it's stolen, in many many ways. so give what you can: the heart has plenty to go around.

be well, friends. be easy and peaceful. this weekend i'm attending a neighbor's housewarming party, baking pumpkin breads for the fire department, knitting, cleaning, and starting to pack. that's it.